This will be a fairly quick post, so here goes. Headed to the hospital last night for what we thought was a baby or two. We weren’t sure, however, if this would be the end, and beginning. Either way in the coming days this journey is about to get a little more exciting.
Some one asked me last night if we were ready and my response was, “Are you ever?” It all seems surreal when you pack that bag and head out the door. I still remember each time, all 5 so far, my life was transformed when this miracle of childbirth occurs. I believe no matter what check list you have or how organized you think you are, there is no way to be ready for what is about to happen to your life. Take out the tangibles: diapers, wipes, bottles, cribs, car seats, strollers, etc., those are all things you can have ready. The things that are un-preparable are: did we choose the right name, sleep deprivation, your life schedule destroyed, how do you prepare for that, and the answer is you don’t! It is absolutely impossible, and that is why you are never really ready. Now multiply all that by a factor of 2, for the twins, and you have the perfect moment in time of panic and apprehension.
As the day unfolded, the contractions increased, both in frequency and intensity. So we headed in for what we thought was our moment, and we both knew, uh oh we aren’t ready for this. Not because we are not pros, because we have a little experience, but because having twins will be something brand new to both of us, and its a bit scary. Think about it, for those that only have “singlets”, two babies get up at night, which doubles the time it takes, two babies need to be rocked to sleep, two babies need diaper changes, man having only one at a time seems, on paper, way easier. I hope, all who have taken the time to read my jabbering, can close their eyes and imagine that scenario played out in the sentence prior, it has to seem a little terrifying. Well all that buildup and we went home empty handed. Those contractions that began so promising, ended about an hour after being at Labor and Delivery. Another first for this large family, a dry run to the hospital that ended in coming home empty handed. We were not ready anyway, right!
They nice thing about our family is we are “ready” for anything that life throws at us. Even the midst of eminent terror of a life changing event, we are upbeat and ready to tackle anything. Love this family and can not wait to meet these boys, but I will have to wait another day, or so.